Am I being targeted by evil spirits/entities or is the matrix attacking me?
My life has been pretty awesome until about March where I lost everything I cared about. My relationship, friends, job. I'm trying to improve and get myself out there again but I have nothing but bad luck and even almost got fricking robbed.
I do not know why this is suddenly happening to me, I dont think i have been bad or anything recently although I did make some mistakes in the past so maybe it is now suddenly catching up to me?
Am I cursed maybe? I also have a huge red pimple on my noes and had a nose bleed a few days ago.
Or maybe is it God himself that is putting me through this for an unknown reason?
Maybe? Who knows and would it matter? Nothing can hurt me, because I say so.
Im glad nothing can hurt you but obviously a lot of stuff is hurting me
So I should just ride it out? Im trying to become a better person but I deal with it by being sick at home for weeks and crying a lot
Try meditation read psalms inexplicable evil can turn into a blessing. Maybe times up its your calling
Your faith can't be tested unless you are met with an extreme.
maybe I need to let go and accept i cant have control over everything
This is what I’ve been doing since my situation started. It’s brought a lot of peace
alright thanks, maybe i have to become more spiritual because im not good at meditation so maybe this will help me find inner peace
In the lead up to what happened to me I got really into the Gateway Tapes meditations. I think it just opened me up to Demonic influence. I’ve gotten more from devoting myself fully to Jesus than from those tapes. You should seriously consider Christianity.
im seriously considering it and trying to become a better person
you know shit has hit the fan when an atheist starts praying
i really need to fix my life
but i dont know if I can win her back
I was more of an agnostic before now. Some friends of mine who were hardcore atheists have become the most devout Christians I know. I’m still trying to figure out what denomination to follow, but reading The Bible and talking about it with my friends has improved my life dramatically.
You may not ever win her back. But if you believe, God may put someone even better in your life. Even when it seems impossible, miracles happen all the time.
Best of luck man
>agnostic
ah yes me too
>God may put someone even better in your life. Even when it seems impossible, miracles happen all the time.
yes deep down I know this, but i dont know if I want this. Why replace someone and not improve someone?
>I’ve gotten more from devoting myself fully to Jesus than from those tapes. You should seriously consider Christianity.
this but my perspective has been
>your father is the only man on earth who will genuinely unselfishly wish for you to be better than him and help you to do it
>Jesus and The Father are the only ones who will ever genuinely wish for you to succeed all adversity and help you to do it
My faith in Jesus has been one of knowing that I have someone cheering for me when I pick myself back up after failing
based holy trips
even if you can't win her back, as you walk the path and develop yourself spiritually, focusing on pure non-material intent and start to hear what I call "the music," things will seem to fall into place in a way that they didn't before
mistakes and failures happen for a reason, and improving yourself is never wasted time
I say this as someone who tore themselves apart for three years after getting unceremoniously dumped by someone who had developed a relationship for six months without telling me, while I was planning to propose. I randomly met a girl at a party and four years of dating and three of happy marriage later it all seems trivial and stupid.
thanks that gives me hope
are you guys still together?
based take, i relate. Christ is king, Do not put the creations over the creator. It took me awhile of introspection and reflection to realize this tho.
>im not good at meditation
everyone likes to talk shit about bruce lee but his "Art of Expressing the Human Body" was a godsend
try moving meditation and tai chi
medidation isn't limited to just sitting and thinking about nothing, it's about filtering your mind of everything but true intention
There is no saying. God let Satan loose in Job despite him being a righteous man. The only thing that matters is how you deal with it when you're at your lowest moment.
Your case definitely sounds quite curse-like.
Did your partner go through similar bad circumstances?
I say that as maybe she offended the wrong person, or made them jealous, invoking a curse. That may be the reason you can't figure out it's source.
Check to see which mahadasha you are currently operating in. Saturn Dasha can be brutal for people, removing friends, jobs, hopes, and dreams from their lives, and forcing them to work like slaves while getting ridiculed despite those around them living the high life. Ketu mahadasha can also be brutal, stripping away all the material attachments you have, leaving you in poverty and loneliness.
You're not cursed, you started the spiritual path - now you're being tested.
Things that you thought were important will be taken away from you, your life will be turned completely upside down, and you will be destroyed and reborn. Universal process.
>you started the spiritual path - now you're being tested.
>Things that you thought were important will be taken away from you, your life will be turned completely upside down, and you will be destroyed and reborn. Universal process.
why hurt me when i just started trying to better myself? Maybe I wasnt bettering myself hard enough?
You needed to pay Karma back. You were stable enough to handle the trial. You're only ever going to be given what you deserve, and what you can handle. You showed you wanted to better yourself, and that is indeed what's now happening.
if im only ever given what I can handle how can I grow stronger?
>yep, happily
im glad
>Brahmacharya.
ill look into it
thank you i will try
deep. How long does this thread stay active? maybe i wanna re read it again tomorrow
if you've got EerieWebx it should just stay archived on your browser window
it's a pretty slow board, though so it'll probably not necro until tomorrow anyway
>if im only ever given what I can handle how can I grow stronger?
You can handle a lot more than you ever think you can
Most people are living in a fake world with no realization of the beyond. When you break that barrier, demons love to attack you. The goal is to keep you in fake world. You can’t listen to them. You have to keep growing spiritually and move closer to God. The more you do this, the happier and more fulfilled you will be, in a way that will seem effortless from the outside looking in
>why hurt me when i just started trying to better myself? Maybe I wasnt bettering myself hard enough?
see my "self image" thing
demons attack your self-image, the hologram that is created when you seat your consciousness in your material body. Without spirit, you have no defense, and you become preoccupied with "improving" things like your salary or meaningless shit like that.
Demons will offer you material things at the expense of your spirit, and they'll lead you to nonproductive things like a spiritual used-car salesman.
>You're not cursed, you started the spiritual path - now you're being tested.
this is why I'm a post-tribulationist
after having done all of this on my own, I still feel like a spiritual amateur. the prospect of having my faith tested by Revelations actually seems like a good challenge. Adversity breeds tremendous strength if you don't let it break you
>are you guys still together?
yep, happily
I was chasing the idea of a relationship before, and with my wife, I wasn't chasing anything and it all happened organically. It feels right because there's synergy, and we both teach each other things.
one huge centerpoint for me since I started looking into all of this is the dichotomy between self and self-image
if you develop your self-image, you're creating a facade that is not truly you, you're building a golem of yourself, which will never have spirit
developing yourself means ablating everything false about yourself and finding your spirit underneath it all
I was developing a relationship-image, and it was unhealthy and in hindsight bound to blow up in my face.
now I develop a relationship, less the image and all the baggage that comes with it
Polite and gentle reminder to respond only to positive suggestion.
The Masters order the trials, and allow the Black Lodge to use evil to test you. That's what's happening.
You are being tested. You can choose to think positively, which will lead to success, or negatively, which will lead to failure.
Do you want to be a soft idiot like Elon? Probably not. This will make you stronger.
The Shamanic initiation - in all cultures, includes a very real dismemberment of the initiate, who is hacked to pieces, and then sewn back together. Think on that for a bit.
Because of this one line
"you know shit has hit the fan when an atheist starts praying"
I will mention Brahmacharya. If you have nothing left to lose. Try it. By all means try your other options first.
Bump for OP.
Thank you my friend
If your experience is anything like mine, prepare for some difficult years. Also if you're a dude hit the gym and learn to fight if you don't already know how.
I have already had difficult years