Was this a documentary? It seems to describe my fate perfectly, just being farmed for misery like cattle.

Was this a documentary? It seems to describe my fate perfectly, just being farmed for misery like cattle.

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  1. 1 month ago
    Anonymous

    You know your fate then do you? It's good that you have it all figured out I guess.
    Good luck with your helplessness.

    • 1 month ago
      Anonymous

      >born into broken famity
      >interracial
      >in country with high on racism and homogenity
      >parents divorce when I'm 3
      >raised by abusive alcoholic narcissistic mother
      >get to live in poverty and ghetto
      >overprotective mother makes me stay at home, not going outside, until 1st grade, ensuring I develop into anti-social weirdo
      >get to experience traumatic experience on 3rd grade, shaping my personality for the worse, losing trust to adult and people, first steps taken into developing solipsism
      >depression, social anxiety and cptsd attained, going out less now
      >no longer getting into fist fights in my teen years, but the damage is already done, I'm secluded shut-in
      >no therapy offered until late 20s, might be too late, I don't even know how to process all this
      >somewhere in late 20s get told I might have autistic tendencies, never get diagnosed
      >30s hit, after quitting school at 16, and not doing much socializing for past 14 years, decide from therapist suggestion that I should go into a school
      >go study music in dorm setting for past 3 years, learn on 3rd year how hard it is to get into these groups, as qliques quickly form
      >learn that normies like the company of other normies, and that there's no room in society for sperg loser like me
      It's never been this over for me. I never even had a chance

      • 1 month ago
        Anonymous

        >in country with high on racism and homogenity
        What country is that? Sounds based.

        • 1 month ago
          Anonymous

          nordic country

      • 1 month ago
        Anonymous

        The worst part is that you’re not even special because you basically just described the majority.

        • 1 month ago
          Anonymous

          Yeah, bro I lived a very privileged life and I still can’t find any good people. I’m not even like fricked up or anything and I’m pretty attractive and don’t have autism and normies spiritually just know to hate me, sometimes I think because they’re jealous of me, but I do think it’s gotta be spiritual.

          Weirdly enough I was in a gas station and I was buying beer and cigs, this other guy was buying the same cigs and candy, and a lady was buying the same candy, and the same beer as me, it was so fricked, we all knew we were true souls, my gf was there and was so weirded out, she was like, did you know those people? And I didn’t, we all had overlapping personality aspects and like birthdays of us and our families all linked up like our snacks, beer, and cigarettes. Our diets were the same, we all were doing similar diets and drinking similar tea. It was surreal. We all said a prayer together and then departed. What the frick guys.

      • 1 month ago
        Anonymous

        Your problem isn't any of that stuff. Your problem is that this world allows horrible things to happen in the first place.

        So what are you seeking? Are you seeking to repair a house built on a rotten foundation (e.g. to repair your "life" within this shithole of a reality)? Or are you seeking a new foundation altogether (e.g. a better reality)?

        If it's the later then why are you believing in your "fate" as told to you by the rules of this world? Why are you believing what this world tells you about yourself if you're seeking to go beyond it?
        This world is not your master unless you want it to be.

        Most spiritual traditions are soul traps. They will teach you to "cope" with all the horrible aspects of your life, because they want to make you a slave.
        Believe it or not you're already doing better than most, because you at least acknowledge that it's ugly, and that means your soul is seeing it from a higher state. All you have to do is not let your mind get in the way with bullshit about your "fate", because that's the trap.
        You haven't already fallen for the trap... You're in the process of falling for it right now.
        The way the trap works is to convince you that you've already fallen for it, so you stop seeking.

        • 1 month ago
          Anonymous

          >Most spiritual traditions are soul traps. They will teach you to "cope" with all the horrible aspects of your life, because they want to make you a slave.
          I guess this must be it. I've been trying to find cope from christianity and jesus, but no ammount of praying seems to help make the pain go away, it seems a religion focussed heavily on promise of afterlife, and not making things better here on earth

          • 1 month ago
            Anonymous

            Well, if you’re actually moronic, the best you can hope for is lifetime grocery bagger. It sounds bad, but you’ll meet so many worse morons that it will make you feel better about yourself.

          • 1 month ago
            Anonymous

            >but no ammount of praying seems to help make the pain go away
            It may sound cheesy but in my view that means your soul is too strong to be fooled. Because pain is your souls KNOWING that something is wrong.

            Conscious experiences are like words in the language of your soul. You KNOW something is wrong here, and all you find from so-called spiritual traditions is crap trying to teach you to ignore what you know. To pretend that it's all ok... To make your soul ignorant of the truth that this state of being is a contradiction.
            It's not normal for life to have to consume other life to live. It's not normal for everyone in this world to wake up in debt to their own existence and have to "labor" to pay it off.
            It's not normal for your "body" to be made in such a way that it craves things which are bad for it, and needs to do things it finds unpleasant in order to have positive results.

            This world is pure contradiction, and your soul knows it. That's what pain is telling you. The only reason the souls of humanity have stagnated in this shithole for so long is because they keep being fooled into accepting what their soul knows it doesn't want to accept. They tell themselves "no pain no gain" (but never no pleasure no loss) and "all good things come with a price" (but never all bad things come with a prize).
            This is not a suffering farm, it's an ignorance farm. An acceptance farm. Suffering is secondary because the souls have to first be made _willing_ to accept the suffering.

          • 1 month ago
            Anonymous

            Your problem isn't any of that stuff. Your problem is that this world allows horrible things to happen in the first place.

            So what are you seeking? Are you seeking to repair a house built on a rotten foundation (e.g. to repair your "life" within this shithole of a reality)? Or are you seeking a new foundation altogether (e.g. a better reality)?

            If it's the later then why are you believing in your "fate" as told to you by the rules of this world? Why are you believing what this world tells you about yourself if you're seeking to go beyond it?
            This world is not your master unless you want it to be.

            Most spiritual traditions are soul traps. They will teach you to "cope" with all the horrible aspects of your life, because they want to make you a slave.
            Believe it or not you're already doing better than most, because you at least acknowledge that it's ugly, and that means your soul is seeing it from a higher state. All you have to do is not let your mind get in the way with bullshit about your "fate", because that's the trap.
            You haven't already fallen for the trap... You're in the process of falling for it right now.
            The way the trap works is to convince you that you've already fallen for it, so you stop seeking.

            This anon figured it out
            Being miserable in a miserable world is actually the start of a good thing. Now it's what you make of it that counts. Repent, put your hopes on the kingdom of Christ and God and do not seek to redeem this world.

            It's normal to struggle, I think. Maybe I'm saying this just to reassure myself but I really think your sinful nature will always try to subvert you reaching for repentance. I pray to God each time that happens. Whenever I feel better because of me being able to pray and putting my hopes on God, pride comes back and I snap back into sinful behaviours, but it's a constant dialectic that is inevitably leading me to rely more on God.
            When you latch on your beauty, you'll turn into something resembling a demon just to get it back.
            When you latch on your intelligence, you're ego will become so hurt at the sight of AI advancement and other more intelligent people that you will allow deceit into your heart just to surpass others
            When you latch on this world, there will always be a drawback, a punishment issued by God.
            But there is almost always with this an opportunity to give up on your delusions and repent. Bad things happening are opportunities for the soul.

          • 1 month ago
            Anonymous

            But I think christianity might be part of the problem

          • 1 month ago
            Anonymous

            Problem I see on posts in this thread is that I haven't seen anyone propose solutions that work on this world, instead only the typical "work on your afterlife bro" type of thing. It's gnosticism really

          • 1 month ago
            Anonymous

            Because nothing works in this world, because it's it's first principles at the roots of existence, are sin and a mistake. This world is based upon a mistake, a transgression.
            This is why God came down to earth in human form. You have to understand that ego is not something you can get rid of in this world. You need to ask for God to be saved and diminish the most extreme forms of sin.

            >What would be such thing? Some precognition or other esp abilities or something, or wdym?
            No, I just mean plain and simple consciousness. Like the color red. Or the sensation of coldness.
            Put your hand up and realize that you know nothing about "hands" all you know is the feeling of "having a hand" and the vision of a "hand" you see in front of you.
            What else is present? There is nothing else.

            [...]
            >Being miserable in a miserable world is actually the start of a good thing.
            You have no idea how long I've been waiting to hear someone else say this. So simple a child could understand it, and yet everyone in this world is being driven away from what they truly know within.
            They're all being convinced that bending your own soul is somehow wisdom. It's sad how many of the most "spiritual people" are the worst examples of this.

            >I'm saying this just to reassure myself but I really think your sinful nature will always try to subvert you reaching for repentance.
            Honestly I think the true meaning of sin is acceptance of this way of being. Because it's this way of being that allows evil. And people are born into it, thus born into sin.
            Confession and repentance are what happen when the soul stops justifying the ugliness of this world, confession = seeing it for what it is and being honest with yourself that this way of being is ugly, repentance = rejecting this way of being from within and seeking something higher.
            Jesus spoke in a very cryptic way, for those who have eyes to see. Everything he said could be interpreted on at least 2 levels. A lower level (which most of mainstream christianity is based on) and a higher one in which it's all about what comes from within.

            >You have no idea how long I've been waiting to hear someone else say this. So simple a child could understand it, and yet everyone in this world is being driven away from what they truly know within.
            They're all being convinced that bending your own soul is somehow wisdom. It's sad how many of the most "spiritual people" are the worst examples of this.
            I absolutely understand everything you said and I think we could be on the same wavelength. Would be nice to speak to you elsewhere, too bad this is anonymous.
            But yes, basically my view is something akin to metaphysical accelerationism. when you push the underlying logic of this world to its full extent, you start to become what they call an atrocious human being. But in reality, doing this gets you closer to truth and God than any of the other classic christians ways of thinking. Being faithful to this world is what leads you to evil, but even Lucifer ultimately works for God and so at some point the evil becomes so obvious and contradictory, you're forced to choose God and rely on him and realize, in this fleshly existence, we are helpless.

          • 1 month ago
            Anonymous

            >, it seems a religion focussed heavily on promise of afterlife, and not making things better here on earth
            Would you believe me if i told you European ancestors started to care less about the environment when Christianity settled in? No reason to take care of the earth when you immortal soul goes to heaven or hell.

        • 1 month ago
          Anonymous

          >Are you seeking to repair a house built on a rotten foundation (e.g. to repair your "life" within this shithole of a reality)?
          >You haven't already fallen for the trap... You're in the process of falling for it right now.
          The way the trap works is to convince you that you've already fallen for it, so you stop seeking.

          If there are signs that I'm suffering from this former, and that I may be falling into a trap, how do I fix it? Do I keep searching for ways of other realities, do I need to learn RV/AP to expand my consciousness or something?

          • 1 month ago
            Anonymous

            All that's truly required is to know yourself. Seek what you are, and never lie to yourself.

            In this world we see reality backwards. The seeking isn't actually going to cause anything to happen, it's the other way around. If you're seeking then your soul has already decided to awaken, and the seeking is just a manifestation of that.
            From there it's only a matter of time.

            There are things which can speed it along though. Like awareness meditations. Be aware of pure consciousness, like in this moment right now is there anything you know apart from conscious sensations? You can also try watching your breath.

          • 1 month ago
            Anonymous

            >right now is there anything you know apart from conscious sensations
            What would be such thing? Some precognition or other esp abilities or something, or wdym?

            Thanks for the tips, I'm thinking of doing more meditation. Not sure if it's good, but I've been laying on bed while listening reiki channel from zen radio (android app).

          • 1 month ago
            Anonymous

            >What would be such thing? Some precognition or other esp abilities or something, or wdym?
            No, I just mean plain and simple consciousness. Like the color red. Or the sensation of coldness.
            Put your hand up and realize that you know nothing about "hands" all you know is the feeling of "having a hand" and the vision of a "hand" you see in front of you.
            What else is present? There is nothing else.

            [...]
            This anon figured it out
            Being miserable in a miserable world is actually the start of a good thing. Now it's what you make of it that counts. Repent, put your hopes on the kingdom of Christ and God and do not seek to redeem this world.

            It's normal to struggle, I think. Maybe I'm saying this just to reassure myself but I really think your sinful nature will always try to subvert you reaching for repentance. I pray to God each time that happens. Whenever I feel better because of me being able to pray and putting my hopes on God, pride comes back and I snap back into sinful behaviours, but it's a constant dialectic that is inevitably leading me to rely more on God.
            When you latch on your beauty, you'll turn into something resembling a demon just to get it back.
            When you latch on your intelligence, you're ego will become so hurt at the sight of AI advancement and other more intelligent people that you will allow deceit into your heart just to surpass others
            When you latch on this world, there will always be a drawback, a punishment issued by God.
            But there is almost always with this an opportunity to give up on your delusions and repent. Bad things happening are opportunities for the soul.

            >Being miserable in a miserable world is actually the start of a good thing.
            You have no idea how long I've been waiting to hear someone else say this. So simple a child could understand it, and yet everyone in this world is being driven away from what they truly know within.
            They're all being convinced that bending your own soul is somehow wisdom. It's sad how many of the most "spiritual people" are the worst examples of this.

            >I'm saying this just to reassure myself but I really think your sinful nature will always try to subvert you reaching for repentance.
            Honestly I think the true meaning of sin is acceptance of this way of being. Because it's this way of being that allows evil. And people are born into it, thus born into sin.
            Confession and repentance are what happen when the soul stops justifying the ugliness of this world, confession = seeing it for what it is and being honest with yourself that this way of being is ugly, repentance = rejecting this way of being from within and seeking something higher.
            Jesus spoke in a very cryptic way, for those who have eyes to see. Everything he said could be interpreted on at least 2 levels. A lower level (which most of mainstream christianity is based on) and a higher one in which it's all about what comes from within.

          • 1 month ago
            Anonymous

            Thoughts on LoA and the whole theory of we're part of one consciousness or whatever? Is it that wrong to want to have better life here on Earth?

          • 1 month ago
            Anonymous

            >Is it that wrong to want to have better life here on Earth?
            It's neither right nor wrong, it's your decision.

            I would just point out to you that you're limiting the possibilities of a "better life" when you also say "on Earth". Because you're then asking for your "better life" to only take on a form that's allowed by the rules of this game.
            Imagine a prisoner asking for a better life within their prison cell. Sure there's nothing wrong with wanting that, but the entire point of what a prison cell is is not meant to be comfortable so the possibilities of a comfortable prison cell is pretty damn limited.
            If you don't imagine possibilities beyond the world you know then in a sense you're making the world you know into your master, because it tells you your limits. Why limit yourself?

            >Thoughts on LoA and the whole theory of we're part of one consciousness or whatever?
            Those are 2 separate things, I would have a lot to say on each one. Not enough space to fit 3 topics in 1 post.
            But in short, LoA is attracting things within an already established system, but is still confined to that system. I would prefer to go beyond a simple trick to the deeper place it all actually comes from and not even be bound by the system at all.
            And about oneness I'll just say I think most people are doing it wrong. Because most people think it means you have to let go of what you are for some collective vision. But if oneness is what we ARE then you find oneness by finding what you are. If you let go of what you are then you're also letting go of true oneness. Because the real meaning is beyond what the mind can understand.

          • 1 month ago
            Anonymous

            Thanks anon for being so kind and patient with your responses. I recently went through hard phase (got turned down by crush, but I have feeling I LoA an encounter with me and them, so I've been clinging on copium that maybe I could fix the situation somehow).

            Went to shower one morning thinking "the archons gonna use x person to get me to stay on this place", later that day person x asks me "anon can you show me on pc how to do this thing". It was either my precognition, or LoA, or Archons/jesters taunting me, by throwing the "big fish" as bait, but it's fricked up when the outcome seems to be the person isn't even interested in me.

          • 1 month ago
            Anonymous

            also i dont know if coincidence, or because first day of the week, but yes it happened on the day of eclipse.

            Love and desire tend to bring the worst in us. Adam also sinned for Eve (if she sinned, he had to sin too)

            And thus the cycle continues..

          • 1 month ago
            Anonymous

            Absolutely agree.
            Human love is narcissic passion. The intoxication at the feeling someone is confirming the lie you've been trying to tell yourself your whole life.
            the lie that you are at the center of it all, just like mom told you, and how you felt unconditionally loved by this world as a child. Worldly love is not real love.

        • 1 month ago
          Anonymous

          >The way the trap works is to convince you that you've already fallen for it, so you stop seeking.

          True. So true.

  2. 1 month ago
    Anonymous

    gorrister is literally me

  3. 1 month ago
    Anonymous

    Can he just produce a muffled scream?

  4. 1 month ago
    Anonymous

    also i dont know if coincidence, or because first day of the week, but yes it happened on the day of eclipse.

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