So what the frick is going on? I have no idea anymore. Who am I?

So what the frick is going on? I have no idea anymore. Who am I?

I used to be a turbo normie atheist, believed things were fine in the world, then I had a big mental breakdown when I was 16 and been in a sorry state since then. I think my parents abused me. Everything I trusted in turned out to be treacherous, full of lies, untrustworthy. So who the hell am I? Who am I supposed to be? What is this crazy existence?

I have some ideas and rationalizations but I am not sure of anything, don't really truly have any solid belief about what is going on in the world. Where do I find answers?

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  1. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    Take a heroic dose of psychedelics and find out for yourself
    Everything posted here could be just as treacherous as everything else

    Beware unearned wisdoms - Jung

  2. 2 months ago
    EVERYONE CAN SEE YOUR TRIPCODE

    Your Holy Guardian Angel your Saviour has all the answers you need. Pray daily. Even for just one minute a day, shift all of your available attention towards the Divine.

    I had a death trip at 17 I know what you're going through man. I wake up everyday wondering if I am in the same reality as I was the last day or if all of my memories have been since implanted.

    But there's no reason to overthink or to worry. Everywhere you go the Divine is with you. This is a whole, division is a lie. We're all going to make it in the end, wherever it is we're going.

    You're already asking the right questions.

    "Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you:
    For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened."

    • 2 months ago
      Anonymous

      Seconded

    • 2 months ago
      Anonymous

      > I wake up everyday wondering if I am in the same reality as I was the last day or if all of my memories have been since implanted.
      This is psychotic, but the rest of what this anon says is surprisingly good.

      Just beware extremes and evangelical christgays.

      >I am not sure of anything, don't really truly have any solid belief about what is going on in the world
      This is actually a really good place to be. Because from here you can explore freely, without some preconceived notion or system or religion telling you it is a certain way. Uncertainty may be uncomfortable, but the more you get used to it and begin to see its value, the less uncomfortable it gets.

      • 2 months ago
        EVERYONE CAN SEE YOUR TRIPCODE

        I don't believe it's literally true. But I don't believe it's false either. What I'm trying to explain is the level of skepticism that I have found

        “The psychotic drowns in the same waters in which the mystic swims with delight.”

  3. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    In God. Unironically.
    Read religious texts, find your calling, find God. He is The Answer.
    Devote your life to him. All of it. Only then will you find your meaning.
    Of course, you can also delude yourself with cheap mysticism; you can try to convince yourself that you're special because you're some level 13 mage or The Nobody or the Chosen or some other bs
    Of course, you can believe that you're summoning tulpas or astral projecting or marrying succubi; or that the meaning is actually in yourself. That you don't need to "feel" that you have a meaning because you are the generator of meaning. Or that the answer lies in drugs, or in women, or in your work.
    But eventually, in a blazing moment, you'll realize that it was all in vain. That it meant nothing. That nothing will come of it. Or has come of it. In that moment you will die from sheer heartbreak.

    Or you could find meaning in Him. An unwavering meaning. An eternal purpose.

    Happy K-day!

    • 2 months ago
      Slaves of an egregore

      This just reads as bow to my master no one can be a master we are all slaves but my master will guide you away from the lies of self actualization in its truest form nothing is in you it’s all in my master as he tuaght me as he is the kind master compared to all other evil masters and a slave needs its master

      • 2 months ago
        Anonymous

        you talk a lot of shit for a future component part

        also self actualization is a moron cope for incels who can't accept the fact that they are absolute losers and who try to divinize themselves to give their lives meaning. you didn't birth yourself, moron. even if you're God's consciousness humanized and which is experiencing itself, you're still a man. you're limited. He (in this case, you) is still different from you, for the time. As long as you're limited, you're his b***h.
        and solipsism is debunked by quantum physics, except for the case in which other people are you, in that case, read above.

        • 2 months ago
          Slaves of an egregore

          Sadly you have no clue what you’re talking about and lack the value needed to find out
          Stay in your lane as a happy slave if you are even happy which I hope you are
          “ Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there,' and it will move.”

          • 2 months ago
            Anonymous

            >how could he have greater logic??!! but muh ages of lurking!!! i need to win this argument.. time to post some vague words that are analoguos to the virgin/chad meme where I prove myself right by saying nothing!!!

            don't use the bible against me, moron. You'd know nothing of God if He appeared in front of you.

          • 2 months ago
            Slaves of an egregore

            I use the Bible against you because you do t even know if your masters work and the enlightenment that can be found within it as all smoke roots from the flame

            The thing you know nothing of has appeared in front of me which is why I know as I do

            I’m sorry your brain/ego is gate keeping you from not only divinity but irony

          • 2 months ago
            Slaves of an egregore

            Don’t even know of*

          • 2 months ago
            Anonymous

            the frick does this one even mean?
            >you don't even know if your master's work and the enlightenment can be found in it
            oh yes I clearly don't realize that the book which was written with the express purpose of imparting knowledge has knowledge within it

            >I met with your master
            Then why the frick are we arguing? If, and I mean if because I seriously doubt you and the good-faith of your posts, you truly did meet Him, that would've been all the confirmation you needed that He is? And that you aren't Him?

          • 2 months ago
            Slaves of an egregore

            We are him though anon you think I’m just spouting such bold shit lightly extraordinary claims require extraordinary evidence which is why I told OP to beware unearned wisdoms and find it for himself through himself
            I can’t show color to the color blind but I can lead them to it

            Google essoterics this is the flame hidden for the wise in the smoke you preach which is a system of binding for the unwise to keep them virtuous and from acting like barbarians but times have changed and the hidden knowledge is becoming clear as Christ cut the viel so that the people could access god which was reserved for high priests

          • 2 months ago
            Anonymous

            this is actual spouting at this point. 2 paragraphs of text and not a single word of value was said.
            What I preach is submission to God. That only in absolute submission to Him can we begin to be like him, to attain Godhood. If you play in the square, His square, and play by His liking, the tree of life (or the kabbalah of creation) is yours.

          • 2 months ago
            Anonymous

            TL;DR
            play games win prizes

          • 2 months ago
            Slaves of an egregore

            If you knew of the da”at and Adam kadmon the teachings of Kabbalah you’d know I Am
            Your words and reasonings are very twisted and filled in half truths

            The path of letting go and trusting god or the Tao as some call it is not an act of submission it an act of reception when you let go of the false self your thoughts perception and ego you attain access to your true self everything there ever was and reality becomes your thoughts it’s not a stable state though one must maintain letting go and to live without verbal thoughts and through feelings collapsed into reality is not only daunting task but can be very frightening especially if you don’t have control over your feelings

  4. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    If you want to know, you have a long journey ahead of you
    But if you ask someone else to provide you with the answers, then the journey is much, much longer

    • 2 months ago
      Anonymous

      this is actually true, you need to carve your own path and separate true knowledge from bs. you have a loooong road ahead. but it gets easier.

  5. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    i also dont know anything anymore since i learned the bible and all religious texts are basically rip offs of the ancient Sumerian annunaki tales & epic of Gilgamesh etc

    • 2 months ago
      Slaves of an egregore

      Even though the line of knowledge has been muddied it does not mean there is no value
      But all answers lay within you and if you want a shortcut psychedelics will bring them out as you can access the deepest confines of your psyche via them

    • 2 months ago
      Anonymous

      i did a major dose of liberty cap mushrooms by myself, prob 10+gs dried for my first time, it was horrifying and im not sure what it taught me, my thoughts were alien language, i didnt know who i am or what i am or what anything is, i saw eyes all over the walls and praying mantis looking through the walls, my arms and legs literally melted off and id collapse on the ground and alien looking demon beings started operating on me and id black out, come back to clarity only for it all to happen again for hours on a loop, aliens did some shit to me i dont know what, finally i came out of it, not sure what i really learned or how it helped me find answers. I did DMT and i just entered a room with shadow beings staring at me and i couldnt breathe because i couldnt feel my body, then a feminine invisible presense arrived next to me and told me it was okay and then i left the room with one eye while staying in the same room with the other eye, i was in two places at once but it wasnt split screen it was like i was fully in both places, while that was cool i still havent gained much deep knowledge of myself or my purpose, meaning or origins from these experiences

      • 2 months ago
        Anonymous
      • 2 months ago
        Anonymous

        You need a guide if you trip again.

        • 2 months ago
          Anonymous

          It’s a glowtard he’s told this story before but it was altered in another direction
          A forced meme aka propaganda

          • 2 months ago
            Anonymous

            lol well im not going to argue with you but those are my experiences, pic is the envelope of mushrooms i did which my mother had sent to me in the post telling me it was just one dose

          • 2 months ago
            Anonymous

            Fair enough I’ve just seen this propaganda before maybe it imprinted on your psyche idk
            That’s the shitty thing about psychedelics is set and setting really do matter and can be the difference between trauma and enlightenment

          • 2 months ago
            Anonymous

            I hear you dude well by no means am i trying to propagate any negative propaganda or anti psychedelic narratives, quite the contrary, I am seeking out an enlightening experience, i have considered going for an aya retreat etc, surely i have some underlying trauma which comes out when i go deep enough. Have been looking at the gordo tek but no mimosa vendors seem to ship to my country

          • 2 months ago
            Anonymous

            Good shit sorry for judging yo so harshly
            You should go to an ashram if you can afford it and try and find some shrooms there to do once you’re peak set and setting
            Word of advice though beware of aya retreats the stuff is no joke and you really should have some one well well vetted for both knowledge and wisdom before you trust them with your psyche like that

          • 2 months ago
            Anonymous

            all good man, normally topics on x around psychedelics turn into a complete shit show so i get it, thank you for the advice

          • 2 months ago
            Anonymous

            so if someone shares the same trip story in more than one thread they are glowies? have you considered it might just be the same person sharing his experiences on a website he frequents on topics relating to his experience?

          • 2 months ago
            EVERYONE CAN SEE YOUR TRIPCODE

            Stop trying to groom anon, you roaring homosexual.

          • 2 months ago
            Anonymous

            Name copier!!!

            Im literally going to "sag" you to the "janpeople"...

          • 2 months ago
            Anonymous

            The details have changed and it was being spammed in other iterations
            Basically the whole jesters are demons that want your soul and lsd will take you to gaint prey mantis is that will operate on you is a psyop that was being forced memed awhile back
            And anyone who has done dmt or lsd will tell you there are no mantises and anyone who’s experienced the jester archetype will not claim it to be a demon unless they can handle self criticism

          • 2 months ago
            Anonymous

            Can’t handle*
            Ugh frick phone posting damn broken laptop

          • 2 months ago
            Anonymous

            > pedophile blames his tools

          • 2 months ago
            Anonymous

            well im telling you there was mantises on that dose of mushrooms i did and thats purely in my own experience, im not attaching any "propaganda" to that and the mantises were the least of it, the dose of mushrooms was more akin to dmt than lsd which ive enjoyed numerous times

  6. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    >Where do I find answers?
    One does not receive answers without having in mind the questions first.. Seeking answers without knowing the questions is the first step to foolishness.
    What are your existential concerns? Put them in a question, two or three if you wish.

    The answers you want are at hand, just ask the right question.

  7. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    You are here.

  8. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    Eventually you will get it. You will learn. You will grow and get wiser. The path of initiation isn’t set in stone. Nobody can tell you how to do it but if there’s a will there’s a way to achieve great things while you’re here.

    • 2 months ago
      Anonymous

      Good posts anons big fan of the begging and end cards

  9. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    you will be reincarnated

  10. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    >It's all fake and gay.
    I wish bro. captcha jav 4w

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