need to enter a terrible place

Since my birth people have worked to keep me weak, so now I can't do basic tasks and I even dip in and out of catatonia. I would like to enter a dimension of torture so that in fighting my way out I can become strong. I don't think any less than that would be enough. I don't have access to drugs and can't fast as I'm forced to eat, so I'll need to do it without physical crutches. I'd appreciate any help you can offer. I'll post reports of my time there if I succeed.

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  1. 1 month ago
    Anonymous

    Just run away,
    Go outside and live homeless for a while.

    • 1 month ago
      Anonymous

      Thanks for caring enough to reply

      That's not the way to do that, you'll just be trading one form of impotence for another. using practice of your choice to first heal your internal components and mind and ability to function so that you may -go forth-, then once you can -go-, engage in pursuit of small milestones that increase in difficulty to reach as your body and mind and components become properly functional. If human development goes wrong, you do not jump into the fire, you must restart human development from the beginning. If you use external practice or energy work to aid in healing and increasing functionality of internal components it will go much faster than you think.

      >I would like to enter a dimension of torture so that in fighting my way out I can become strong.

      You're literally in it. Just go outside and attempt to make something of significance happen, for your own benefit or for the sake of it. You will be met with immediate resistance.

      If you don't give up until you succeed and keep repeating this over and over you will become strong.

      You might be in a narcissistic family structure. Before getting into fantasy or delving into the spiritual root of all of it, the best thing to do is to take real world practical steps. Move away. Go low contact. Figure out what you want to do in life.

      These are all good pieces of advice, but the problem is they all require a certain amount of strength and willpower to start. The reason I landed on the solution I did is because it wouldn't require internal motivation (the motivation would be forced on me). I do plan to be homeless, but severing ties with a posessive family takes more force than I've ever found so far. I do energy work when I am able to.

      Anon that's moronic, pure love can make you strong

      Love can take you where it wants to take you. It's an external power working through you, not your own strength.

      • 1 month ago
        Anonymous

        >Love an external power
        Frick you are lost. The whole creation operates with love, you were created from love with love. Hate and suffering is the real you then?

  2. 1 month ago
    Anonymous

    You're already in it, you moron. Instead of fighting from where you already are, you want to go somewhere else?

  3. 1 month ago
    Anonymous

    That's not the way to do that, you'll just be trading one form of impotence for another. using practice of your choice to first heal your internal components and mind and ability to function so that you may -go forth-, then once you can -go-, engage in pursuit of small milestones that increase in difficulty to reach as your body and mind and components become properly functional. If human development goes wrong, you do not jump into the fire, you must restart human development from the beginning. If you use external practice or energy work to aid in healing and increasing functionality of internal components it will go much faster than you think.

    • 1 month ago
      Anonymous

      Anyway
      To literally be transported to another realm of suffering for growth, requires fostering and growth of internal components to a point in which none of it matters, once you have the ability to teleport to another place, you can just place all desired functionality unto yourself.

      What's more feasible, if you want to maintain your experience, is to use practice or entity of your choice for le purpose of crafting your current life into a gauntlet for yourself.

  4. 1 month ago
    Anonymous

    >"so I'll need to do it without physical crutches"
    pussy

  5. 1 month ago
    Anonymous

    do carnivore diet

  6. 1 month ago
    Anonymous

    >I would like to enter a dimension of torture so that in fighting my way out I can become strong.

    You're literally in it. Just go outside and attempt to make something of significance happen, for your own benefit or for the sake of it. You will be met with immediate resistance.

    If you don't give up until you succeed and keep repeating this over and over you will become strong.

  7. 1 month ago
    Anonymous

    The only other way I could think of to give u what you want without interfering with your desired experience is contact with entities that will provide knowledge to you in this way, via astwal projection I guess?

  8. 1 month ago
    Anonymous

    sell your belongings and give the proceeds to the poor

  9. 1 month ago
    Vicar-Devil

    >Since my birth people have worked to keep me weak, so now I can't do basic tasks and I even dip in and out of catatonia.
    This in itself develops the soul to become immune to emotional devastation by forces that would torture. On a long enough timeline, what is a higher order of hell will be chambered around perception until you evolve through each step, or are shown how to. The nature of eternity is not demands that things change now, but patience and preparation for when they do.

    If you do not accept this, your journey will stagnate until shocked out of the flaw.

  10. 1 month ago
    Anonymous

    Anon that's moronic, pure love can make you strong

  11. 1 month ago
    Anonymous

    Run away from home to a new city and become homeless and be sure to gain a meth addiction. Oh and take a heroic amount of LSD. Like an entire sheet of the stuff the day you run away.

  12. 1 month ago
    Anonymous

    This is what happens when you play too much video games

  13. 1 month ago
    Anonymous

    You might be in a narcissistic family structure. Before getting into fantasy or delving into the spiritual root of all of it, the best thing to do is to take real world practical steps. Move away. Go low contact. Figure out what you want to do in life.

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