I hanged myself in the forest when I was 20 because I didn't want to make a mess in my parent's house, didn't want them to see me like ...

I hanged myself in the forest when I was 20 because I didn't want to make a mess in my parent's house, didn't want them to see me like that. Also wanted to make sure I will actually die. I picked up the thickest branch I could find and guess what, when I was almost out of air, it fricking broke. And I'm not even a fatass. I can still remember the birds screaming and schizo visions when I was passing out. Getting so close to death made me uncaring, cruel and emotionally dead, so the opposite of what suicide survival people say.

As far as the visions go I've seen hooded figures all around me, some of them were dancing in a folk kind of way, not fricking twerking obviously lmao. I also felt hands on me, they were both burning and cold at the same time. I heard strange voices sounding like mine but mixed with others saying weird shit, almost mocking me.

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  1. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    You're lucky, anon. You almost lost your soul forever.

    • 2 months ago
      Anonymous

      This

      https://i.imgur.com/N1XH5EZ.jpg

      I hanged myself in the forest when I was 20 because I didn't want to make a mess in my parent's house, didn't want them to see me like that. Also wanted to make sure I will actually die. I picked up the thickest branch I could find and guess what, when I was almost out of air, it fricking broke. And I'm not even a fatass. I can still remember the birds screaming and schizo visions when I was passing out. Getting so close to death made me uncaring, cruel and emotionally dead, so the opposite of what suicide survival people say.

      As far as the visions go I've seen hooded figures all around me, some of them were dancing in a folk kind of way, not fricking twerking obviously lmao. I also felt hands on me, they were both burning and cold at the same time. I heard strange voices sounding like mine but mixed with others saying weird shit, almost mocking me.

      They are the same beings that visit you during sleep paralysis, they were extremely close to feast on your soul.
      It makes sense that you're a generally worse person now after this experience, the same happened to me after a sleep paralysis where a hooded being took a piece of my soul presumably, a ball of blue light from my chest years ago.

      They were probably attracted by the extremely negative energy emanating from your soul

      • 2 months ago
        Anonymous

        when i am extremely tired, have my third eye massively pulsing and go to sleep i always get very disturbing sleep paralysis episodes where disturbing characters utter threats in German. they can also come with very disturbing dreams. straight-up bizarro-tier. "you will hear nothing, you will see nothing. your body will be mine." stuff like that

        • 2 months ago
          Anonymous

          how do you know what they say if they speak german, are you lying or you are german?

          • 2 months ago
            Anonymous

            im pointing that out because i dont speak german anymore. so it's very eerie to hear a voice talking to me when even my thoughts and dreams have been in english for years. could be subconscious anyways, for all i know.

      • 2 months ago
        Anonymous

        How do you reverse this? How do you reignite your soul?

        • 2 months ago
          Anonymous

          Seek the Holy, cleanse yourself. Get an exorcism. Meditate, cry, fast. Look for the white flame. The other opportunities will come in due time.

        • 2 months ago
          Anonymous

          According to my understanding. Soul/yang/chi energy seems to replenish itself over time. This can be accelerated through semen retention greatly, eating healthier, or just healthy lifestyle in general. The physical and spiritual are connected. Even our chakras are connected to our organs and bodily functions. Problem in one presents problem in the other. You have to reach a point where you can say my body is thriving instead of decaying.

      • 2 months ago
        Anonymous

        I had a piece of red put -in- my chest.
        But that's a whole different thing and lol to those silly, silly anons.

        • 2 months ago
          Anonymous

          Please go on and elaborate, what changes did you perceive after the insertion? Why do you think was it red? In my case the blue ball seemed as if it was powerful, full of energy, precious, like an energy orb

          • 2 months ago
            Anonymous

            It was performed by 2x entities, red robed like some type of high ranking priest, both bald with healthy Caucasian skin.
            I'll leave further details there, someone else might recognize what I'm talking about.

            A blue orb, like a large marble is something I have experience in regarding a sort of phylactery with partial soul within (like a lich might use, or maybe people more commonly know the horcrux concept).

      • 2 months ago
        Anonymous

        another classic schizo poster

    • 2 months ago
      Anonymous

      >You almost lost your soul forever.
      according to whom? is there any basis for this FUD?

  2. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    Do you feel like you're being watched even when your alone? Anything weird happen since?

    • 2 months ago
      Anonymous

      I've felt that something follows me since I was a kid. I've seen weird "falling apart" figure peeking out of my room when I was 4, in a bright day, it scared the shit out of me. It smiled at me. Since that day I've felt like a "chosen one" in a narcissistic stupid way. After the suicide attempt I don't think it was ever protecting me, since I reflected on my life, I've been a piece of shit for majority of it.

      I'm 27 now, so there is still some time to make changes, but I fricked up.

      • 2 months ago
        Anonymous

        It's not too late for you, anon. We've all made mistakes, and we've all been made fools of by demons. I've had similar experiences, but a little more intense. If you'd like, I can try to offer some guidance.

        I'm [...]
        As far as it goes for me I've felt watched for weeks before and after that event, i was scared of dark doorways and corners in my house, i felt presences watching behind of me during that period, eventually it completely stopped, but i couldn't shake the feeling that i lost a big piece of me back then

        Have you ever seen shadows moving in impossible ways? Heard whispers in a dead language that came from nowhere?

        >but i couldn't shake the feeling that i lost a big piece of me back then
        Bingo. That's why you felt so cold and empty after your suicide attempt. It's not too late to reclaim what is yours.

        • 2 months ago
          Anonymous

          >shadows moving in impossible ways?
          Not sure about this i don't think i did, or if i did i must have overlooked it
          >Heard whispers in a dead language that came from nowhere?
          Holy shit yes, i heard them more clearly as a young teen, happened more than once, i once heard it so clearly it was unsetting.
          >That's why you felt so cold and empty after your suicide attempt.
          No no I'm not op i just told my piece of anecdote

        • 2 months ago
          Anonymous

          >offer guidance

          How do you shed the darkness?

      • 2 months ago
        Anonymous

        please start asking Jesus to keep you safe and to save you. He'll keep all this nasty stuff away.

        • 2 months ago
          Anonymous

          This. Something like
          >lord Jesus thou son of God have mercy on me!

          Faith brother more tattered souls than yours have been saved. That branch didn't break itself.

      • 2 months ago
        Anonymous

        >I'm 27 now, so there is still some time to make changes, but I fricked up.
        Damn anon, I've had an NDE and got some kind of chosen one complex before too, and 26 now and a fricked up life. Back in school though and getting myself out of this mess. We can do it anon.

        • 2 months ago
          Anonymous

          I hope it turns out for the better for you.

    • 2 months ago
      Anonymous

      I'm

      This
      [...]
      They are the same beings that visit you during sleep paralysis, they were extremely close to feast on your soul.
      It makes sense that you're a generally worse person now after this experience, the same happened to me after a sleep paralysis where a hooded being took a piece of my soul presumably, a ball of blue light from my chest years ago.

      They were probably attracted by the extremely negative energy emanating from your soul

      As far as it goes for me I've felt watched for weeks before and after that event, i was scared of dark doorways and corners in my house, i felt presences watching behind of me during that period, eventually it completely stopped, but i couldn't shake the feeling that i lost a big piece of me back then

      • 2 months ago
        Anonymous

        >the feeling that i lost a big piece
        Archons went gobble gobble

      • 2 months ago
        Anonymous

        Yeah oxygen deprivation causes a rather stark degradation of mental faculties. Probably shouldn't have tried to asphyxiate yourself but you're a ducking moron so now you've got neurological damage, so yes you literally lost part of your mantel capacity when you tried to off yourself.

        >lmao get a load of this fricking mongloid. Don't have a nice day though we need cannon fodder.

  3. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    Fvck your strealth coomer thread.

    • 2 months ago
      Anonymous

      found pablo trolling another thread

  4. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    Did the rope leave a mark on your neck? Surely people would notice.

    • 2 months ago
      Anonymous

      Yes. I had a mark for 2.5 months, I hid it in turtleneck at first, stopped caring after a week.

      • 2 months ago
        Anonymous

        Hanging is not a very good suicide method. High chance of failure and everybody can see that you attempted. Holy grail would be barbiturates. That’s the reason why the veterinary profession has a disproportionately high rate of suicide.

        • 2 months ago
          Anonymous

          What's the reason why vets kill themselves?

          • 2 months ago
            Anonymous

            Putting down suffering pets while their family grieves them is unfathomably heartbreaking.

  5. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    such a fricking babe

    • 2 months ago
      Anonymous

      She’s a troon. Look at the male feet

  6. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    i was near of trying the way you did but i'm so scared of the darkness it's suposed to surround you when you die, after i quit drugs i truly felt that life was so empty and meaningless, but after a while when i stoped to care life got better, do you really saw that darkness i need to know so i can resign it and keep going.

    • 2 months ago
      Anonymous

      > but after a while when i stoped to care life got better
      This is why this world is so ducking weird. The moment you really don’t give a shit is when it gets better. I mentored a kid who wanted to end it all and basically told him this like the doomer dipshit I am when he was in high school. He went from being suicidal in freshmen year to being valedictorian and prom king by his senior year. When I asked him for advice on how to turn things around he smiled and told me to follow my own advice. He took the apathetic approach which he transformed into something constructive. He said once he accepted how meaningless and uncontrollable most things and people are he wrote a list of what he could control and decided to “game the system”. He told me the things he could manipulate and control were finite but increased as he got more successful. He said the key was to not desire the outcome or goal but to pursue it as a form of mild interest, “hmm being a grade A student will probably give me more chances to find meaning in life, let’s see what I can do about that.” He treats life like an investigation rather than something he’s burdened with. He said don’t conform to the expectations of other or you will start looking for ropes on Amazon like he did.

      • 2 months ago
        Anonymous

        https://i.imgur.com/N1XH5EZ.jpg

        I hanged myself in the forest when I was 20 because I didn't want to make a mess in my parent's house, didn't want them to see me like that. Also wanted to make sure I will actually die. I picked up the thickest branch I could find and guess what, when I was almost out of air, it fricking broke. And I'm not even a fatass. I can still remember the birds screaming and schizo visions when I was passing out. Getting so close to death made me uncaring, cruel and emotionally dead, so the opposite of what suicide survival people say.

        As far as the visions go I've seen hooded figures all around me, some of them were dancing in a folk kind of way, not fricking twerking obviously lmao. I also felt hands on me, they were both burning and cold at the same time. I heard strange voices sounding like mine but mixed with others saying weird shit, almost mocking me.

        there's nothing wrong about nihilism/amorality/meaninglessness
        >people think that if they paint purpose and judgement onto the great beyond, that it will fill their life with purpose and direction as well, but more times than not it has the opposite of the intended effect
        >you must remember that for a flower to grow, it must reside in the dark nihilistic mass of shit and filth we call soil.
        >meaning resides in a grand lack of meaning, purpose resides in a grand lack of purpose, and the flower of life grows most beautifully when it's roots reside in the unconditional love of the nihilistic void, which both accepts, and nourishes all life, the noble lion, and the parasitic tapeworm which resides within it's belly.

  7. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    Don’t ruin the surprise for OP.

    • 2 months ago
      Anonymous

      I have many theories, both logical ones and schizo ones.

      The schizo ones:
      >I'm already dead
      >It wasn't me that returned
      >I'm not alone in myself but share this body with something else

  8. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    Man, I think you really went there and touched the other side. Dipped your toes in, so to speak. And yes, I understand your experience acutely. The hallucinations were whack given that I had to crawl, no fricking shit, through a graveyard to get back home after I decided I didn't actually want to die anymore. I don't experience anything like after effects at all though. Maybe you're just in your head about it too much and psyching yourself out. It was a majorly traumatic event, and I'm really not trying to be condescending when I say try therapy and be honest. It may really help you, and if not with the visuals and sensations, then at least with staying positive. Best wishes.

  9. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    Smoke DMT so the hooded freaks reveal themselves

  10. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    *hung, stopped reading.

    • 2 months ago
      Anonymous

      I'm ESL. I'm from North Poland, not a pajeet if that matters. Sorry.

    • 2 months ago
      Anonymous

      No, he was correct, it's hanged.

      • 2 months ago
        Anonymous

        https://i.imgur.com/O62ZZQa.jpg

        https://i.imgur.com/JW049ct.jpg

        Hanged is correct. But you look for reasons not to read words, so you're obviously ignorant to begin with. You've twice confirmed it. You're lucky to be anonymous.

        Idiot rules followers ESLs. To any native English speaker hung sounds better. It’s not about being factually correct it’s about using the language like someone who speaks it. Dumbasses.

        • 2 months ago
          Anonymous

          >hung sounds better

          I guess you just keep dummies in your circles. I'm American, raised by teachers, and a college graduate. You have a problem with 'pleaded guilty' and 'felled trees'? Just because you grew up around dumb people saying dumb things doesn't mean you can speak for all of us who love the language, it just means you come from idiot stock. Correct language sounds correct. You can't really justify yourself here. You're the dumbass and you got called on it. Just take your licks and move on. You can't defend it.

        • 2 months ago
          Anonymous

          >t. Public school dropout

        • 2 months ago
          Anonymous

          To anyone who is literate, “hanged” sounds better.

    • 2 months ago
      Anonymous
    • 2 months ago
      Anonymous

      Hanged is correct. But you look for reasons not to read words, so you're obviously ignorant to begin with. You've twice confirmed it. You're lucky to be anonymous.

  11. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    >As far as the visions go I've seen hooded figures all around me, some of them were dancing in a folk kind of way, not fricking twerking obviously lmao. I also felt hands on me, they were both burning and cold at the same time. I heard strange voices sounding like mine but mixed with others saying weird shit, almost mocking me
    Sounds like jesters and elves people see when on DMT

  12. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    >I heard strange voices sounding like mine but mixed with others saying weird shit, almost mocking me.
    You got trolled by spirits/cryptids. Good job. So much preparations and you still got fricked done in. It's not even skill issue, it's just how things sometimes are. Well, you still may turn it out for the better.

  13. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    Now it's time to become a Christian.

    • 2 months ago
      Anonymous

      The obligatory Christcuck enters the fray to shit on another thread.
      >Jeezus is the solution to all spiritual problems i take no responsibility on my own actions and soul, i will not strengthen my own soul, just call for jeezus to help
      Jesus here, Jesús there, he's fricking dead thousands of years ago, just listen to his word, follow the wisdom he gives and frickoff

      • 2 months ago
        Anonymous

        Yet you don’t teach how to strengthen the soul.

        • 2 months ago
          Anonymous

          There's more than enough spiritual practices out there that don't devolve putting your faith into someone else to solve all your problems

          another classic schizo poster

          Where do you think you are? I hope it happens to you anon one day so you can see for yourself how real they are.
          You don't need to be schizo, crazy or insane to experience their attention, you just need to take a bad path

        • 2 months ago
          Anonymous

          Surely the answer to strengthening your soul isn't pitting all of your focus, energy, and dedication into another being other than yourself, is it?

          You wouldn't ask someone to "lift weights for you" that's what christ cuckoldy is; It's an easy, free, shortcut of a scapegoat answer to solve all of the universes' questions for you, and define your identity to you. There isn't one way to strengthen the soul, only you know that through your own personal introspection. Define yourself. Your individual will isn't owned by ANYONE. No god, norse, abrahamic, hindu, NO god is stronger than you are as an individual, this is why they demand your worship. They are selfish entities that do nothing but siphon your energy in return for minor, petty little blessings.

          You are being scammed when you make arrangements with entities. Any entity. Don't let them rule your life, they steal all of your soul's individuality & power in exchange for small petty blessings & "signs" to placate you and convince you you're getting a good deal. You aren't.

          • 2 months ago
            Anonymous

            I'm

            There's more than enough spiritual practices out there that don't devolve putting your faith into someone else to solve all your problems
            [...]
            Where do you think you are? I hope it happens to you anon one day so you can see for yourself how real they are.
            You don't need to be schizo, crazy or insane to experience their attention, you just need to take a bad path

            I keep trying to tell this to christcucks but i could never put it into words as well as you did, yes this is exactly what's wrong, you couldn't have said it better.

  14. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    It was either your brain trying to make you finish the job or there are really some weird beings in different dimensions. I'm myself an atheist and know too much about Abrahamic god to take the entire lore seriously. But I'm not denying that there might be beings in some different dimensions, not necessarily christcuck demons, but something else. I recommend Passport to Magonia and Demon Haunted World. Pretty good books.

    • 2 months ago
      Anonymous

      Also. I had a BPD ex that swore that she was haunted/stalked by something she couldn't describe. We were drunk and high once and she started to act out and couldn't even speak or scream, she pretty much shit her pants from fear. I saw some weird figure similar to our imagination of Grim Reaper in a glassglass, for a brief moment. Really creepy shit.

  15. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    stinky smelly girlfeets

  16. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    How do I get Monica Bellucci type gf?

  17. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    Your revolutionary soul was breaking free from the shackles of your fascist meat body.

  18. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    OP, I know you have no reason to believe me, but I am almost certain you were about to be dragged to hell/the bad place. Look up Howard Storm and his near death experience. He also saw hooded figures, just like you, who dragged him to a horrible place with humanoid looking monsters that started tearing him apart.

    Both you and him were given a second chance to turn things around. There is still time. If there are people you love who have passed, they’ll be waiting for you in the good place. Do it for them if you cant be assed to do it for yourself.

    Also, not a christcuck, but I do believe that people can change, and there is something there for us after we die.
    Good luck anon.

  19. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    the voices were mocking you because youre a fricking moron. clear as day, truly.

  20. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    Enjoy your quantum immortaliy, and welcome to the one of few worst timelines

    • 2 months ago
      Anonymous

      So if you intentionally chewed and swallowed a heap of cyanide pills, jumped into a giant blender off a skyscraper as well as shooting yourself in the head with two guns on either side all while falling, and once you hit the floor it sets off the bomb you had attached to your body.. you'd enter a reality where you survived.

      • 2 months ago
        Anonymous

        Yes.

    • 2 months ago
      Anonymous

      what happens in a sense quantum immortality when you die of old age?

  21. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    I had that rope breaking moment when I was a 9, but it was in my bedroom and it wasn't the rope that broke but the skylight it was attached to.
    I was a really sensitive kid and all the suffering around me felt unbearable (my mother used to cry a lot, because of her memories from being raped as a kid).
    I'd love to say it changed me but it didn't. I've been near death a few other times and it taught me nothing and did not change me either. I might be too moronic.

  22. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    Losing and gaining, consuming or being consumed, it is trully a dog eat dog world? I would be a fool to say that I'm not frightened, moreso of myself and the actions I might take than of others.
    Madness comes both divine and hellish

  23. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    I'm sorry to hear that, anon. it always gets better. it has to, just believe in that universal cycle and that's positivity. or don't, but the universe and God are love anyway. love you and everyone else anyway. you are never alone.

  24. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    Feet.

  25. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    Why the frick did you assume we would think they were twerking?

    • 2 months ago
      Anonymous

      Black person culture of EerieWeb

  26. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    The voices aren't telling you that you need to cross over to the other side, they're trying to tell you why you were kept on Earth. Looks like you have a task to perform, OP. Have the shadow figures given you any inkling what you should accomplish on the mortal plane?

  27. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    Damn bro I hope you can get help. I wish I could give you a hug. I want you to keep on living. Please see the light of this world. Flowers, trees, clouds, sun. They're so simple, why wouldn't one smile at them? I send you a lot of love my friend, please see your whole life through. Everything will be alright. Follow your dreams man. Every issue, obstacle or negativity is just another stone in the road. Keep at it, live. If you want or need a friend, I'm here.

    • 2 months ago
      Anonymous

      That was gay as frick, dawg.

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    Anonymous

    She's so fricking hot bros

    • 2 months ago
      Anonymous

      this is now monica belluci thread
      what are the paranormal implications of her existing ?

      • 2 months ago
        Anonymous

        the paranormal implications are that she haunts my dreams

        • 2 months ago
          Anonymous

          and when i recreate this universe, we all get Monica Belluci gfs who love and support us (actual love, not conditional love from money, status, looks)

          • 2 months ago
            Anonymous

            but your love for Monica Belluci is for her good looks thus conditional

  36. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    Happy youre alive anon.

  37. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    frick you, OP
    a good friend of mine hung himself like 20 years ago
    his fricking fingers were bruised from trying to save himself
    and frick you Amy, you dumb c**t

  38. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    >As far as the visions go I've seen hooded figures all around me, some of them were dancing in a folk kind of way, not fricking twerking obviously lmao. I also felt hands on me, they were both burning and cold at the same time. I heard strange voices sounding like mine but mixed with others saying weird shit, almost mocking me.
    You are either schizo or you opened your third eye somehow.

  39. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    HANGED HUNG why the frick do you people care so much. I didn't even notice how OP said it, I still understand everything.

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